Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Longing to be a Mommy to be

When I was young and someone would turn to me and ask, "What do you want to do when you grow up?" I would reply with some common child like answer and say "I want to be a doctor!" or "I want to be a teacher!" and while these things are great aspirations, they were never really mine. What I REALLY aspire to be is a mommy. Just a full time, multi-taskin' wonderful mommy.

There is just one little problem with reaching my deisre at this point in my life. My husband, my other half, significant other.... whatever you want to call him. He is SO not ready for fatherhood. I think being a father is at the bottom or close to the bottom of his "Things desired" list. He's not ready to give up his freedom! (or what little freedom he has left.. he IS married now you know) He likes doing what he wants to do when he wants to do it. He likes sleeping all through the night peacefully. He likes having money to go on vacations and things of the sort. He enjoys sitting in silence and stresses out when babies cry. He likes living life by a set plan or set path, and let's face it.....when you have kids there is no following a set plan. He's just not.... ready.

I've been told by many people, "you're too young!" and "It's not as fun as you think." and "You're not ready." I think I know myself better than anyone else and let me tell you I AM READY. I know babies cry a lot and that they make messes that you have to clean up. I know that babies NEED a lot of affection and attention. I know that babies are REAL babies and it's not like playing house. I don't expect raising a baby to be fun all the time. I know that it's hard work and stressful at times. I also know that babies are expensive. I know all of these things and I KNOW that I am ready for all of that. I am just waiting patiently for my time to be a mommy.......I have so much love inside of me for my someday babies.

I say two years.... he says five years to never.....

We'll see....!

1 comment:

Jenni at talking hairdryer said...

Oh, girl, I'm glad you're ready. Because when you're married, it could happen any time. But take it from someone who wasn't ready. It's a hard transition. Hard. So I'm glad you're patient. It will be so much easier on everyone if he's at least a little ready. Are they ever completely ready?